Everyone has gifts and talents, those things that give us a spark from within. I look at it as how it is not something I have developed, but it is something gifted by God. You know you have that “it” that you want to do, that you know you can do. But at the same time, there seems to be a problem with it. By that I mean the timing may be off for doing it, or it may be that others do not believe you have what it takes to be successful in doing it. But those same people have no problem believing in others and encouraging them. For me, this leads to frustration, particularly when being passed over keeps happening. Though I have volunteered or asked to do something, saying I am available for doing something, I am not asked. But here is the crazy thing about it all.

For example, I may do something, and I feel God’s presence through it all, and whatever it is I am doing goes over well. Those who are present are pleased with the efforts made. But there is no one there from my team who comes and experiences what happened. They decide to go to another site and not mine. When this happened recently, it made me feel alone. But after thinking, I have come up with some conclusions.

When it doesn’t appear that others are involved or would rather be somewhere else, there is someone who is involved and does care. That person is the one who is the most important. And He is not human, but He does approve of the effort. And because of that,

1. I had to acknowledge who my focus should be on. If it is people, I have had enough experience to know that people let you down. If people are the focus, I will continue to be disappointed. But what if the focus came in the form of a question? God, were You pleased? When the focus shifts from people to God, and I ask Him the question, and His response is that He is happy, shouldn’t that be all I need to know at that point?
2. I thought of all the ideas I had, getting them on paper, and presenting them. But God included more thoughts and helped me say them. When I did that, the responses from those who listened to those ideas were happy to hear them. Many said they were happy they came to hear what I had to say, it made them feel better. This in turn made me feel better, like all my effort was not in vain. I said things to the people who came to the bible study that were not written down. Thoughts linked up to bible verses I did not think of as they popped in my head and flowed through my speech, surprising me in the process. The flow of it all was great, and I thanked God for His involvement.
3. As I sat in my car, I thought of all that happened in the past sixty minutes. I was in awe of how well the lesson I created went. But at the same time, I knew this was not me; I could not take credit for what occurred. I was happy God was pleased.

So, what does all this mean? I already know there will come another situation where something similar to this one will occur again. But when it happens, I must remember who is with me, and who is okay with me. It doesn’t matter that humans don’t approve or acknowledge what I have done. God knows, and He is all that matters in the scheme of things.