I did not know it had been since September 2022 that I had written in this blog. I wrote more in the other blog, lucidity2015.com. So, here is a quick update regarding my mother:

• August: mom broke her leg, and had surgery, which was a success
• October: stopped eating and drinking; had feeding tube inserted
• 2023
  • still would not eat
  • body started breaking down with massive bed sores
  • June 17, 2023: Mom left earth

After the funeral, I went on a trip to see friends, to get away from it all. I knew something big was about to happen, because late May I began cleaning my apartment, throwing out things, donating clothes, rearranging furniture. At the time I didn’t know why I was doing it, but it brought such happiness I continued doing it. Now with just a few things to finish regarding handling my mother’s affairs, I wonder what is next? What is my next update?

There are habits I developed that I am trying to break. For example, stop taking my phone to bed with me, just in case I got a call from the nursing home. I am trying to leave it in the living room. Asking myself if I will visit mom today and then remembering I don’t have to ask myself that anymore. There are days I have so much time to do whatever I want, then wondering what to do with the time.

This post represents my beginning. It’s been a while since I have written anything, so I am trying to get back in the swing of writing. I have books to finish, a podcast to get up and running, and other creative things I look forward to starting. It brings up a familiar passage of scripture:

“See, I am doing a new thing! Now it springs up; do you not perceive it? I am making a way in the wilderness and streams in the wasteland.” Isaiah 43:10

With God’s help, eventually I will find my way. I don’t feel lost, but I don’t feel settled either. I need to give myself time and flood myself with patience, something I think I deserve to give myself…